a letter to my dearest friend

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I'm not going to say, "I know what you're going through." Because I genuinely don't. But I am a family you can rely on. You know that I will be here for you whenever you wish to rant or spill everything you've bottled up inside. I want you to know how special you are, and please don't take it in the way your mom does when she brags about you to her friends. You are special to me, and that's why we are still friends after so many years. I want you to know how you light up the world, and most importantly, my world with your smile. I want you to promise me this, even when it gets hard, which I know it will and probably still is at this moment. Please don't push me away when I try to help you. The most important thing I've learned from eating disorders and depression is that vulnerability will bring you out of misery. You may not want to hear it, but those people are there for you and would do anything to help you. So, give me a chance and don't think it will be a burden to me. There is no mere word to express the joy it will bring me spending more time with you and knowing what you need. I know you feel like you can't get through this. I know it seems like your world is coming down on you, and you can't find the strength to get back up. Take my word for it, I was once going through hardships that made me barely hanging on by a thread. At this point, you will probably make some jokes out of the grammar mistakes I made in this letter. Whatever, I want to see you laugh more even though it sounds cliche. Sorry. Hang in there. You're important to this world and have so much talent and so many ideas to give. Everything will eventually fall back into place, just give it some time. I will always be here when you need me. I love you. Best, Your friend.